*♥Memories Alive♥*

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Hehe..This blog is back to "Alive" mode..actually very tired and lazy to blog de..but den this thing is a MUST to blog..coz it's the best memory ever in the most helpless scene.

27/03/09

Yesterday nite, baby..sry ma fan u come down meet me..din i told u i dowan u return anything le ma?why u still bring PS1 down lei? and din i say dun touch my heart le ma?u still touched it in the end. Did you realise for that few days, i keep avoiding your question when u say you still love me and ask if i still love u? I'm afraid my heart will move thats y i keep asking u to stop saying those stuffs.

We were sitting down, den u pass me the plastic bag with the bear in it, the PS1 and CDs. I was really very determined to say all the harsh words to you to make you give up on me. I did not dare to look at you for i scared my heart will get shaky. I din have anything to say to u..I was very scared and my mind was blank, i was thinking of just leaving without saying anything. I thought it was the end already. You took off your necklace and returned me..the only thing i can think of for that moment and said it is "throw it away". Baby ar~you gimme that necklace for wad?thats i give u de lei..u think i will let other ppl wear mehx?wad can i do with it anyway?silly boy..

I remember one scenario where i say something den i smiled at you..den when u smile back, i quickly turn around and scolded myself, "Stupid ar? Smile at him for wad? He smile back for wad also?! but dunno why see him, i feel like smiling lei..eh?cannot!must strong..dun smile liao! Lata he think I still love him.." dats why from den, i din look at you much coz i scared my heart give in and will smile again..serious matters treat like play play not that good ma..right?

Den I also took off my necklace since u took off yours..i put in on the table den i saw the ring on my finger. It's a ring i bought more den half a year ago i think..i took it out and put it on the table also..preparing to throw everything away (your necklace, my necklace, my ring)..we talked a while bout the mistakes i did 3 days ago..den when u saw the ring, u push it to me and ask me..

Bao: throw this for wad?it's yours lei..oso not i give u de..

Emily: i noe ar..

Bao: den throw for wad?ex give u de ar?oso not i give u y nid throw?

Emily: i buy myself de la..aiya..this ring today i wear out as a prove i got bf le..

(i regretted saying that..I hated myself..i regretted showing u i still love u)

You kept quiet..den i took the ring up, and say..

Emily: this ring is wear to prove got bf de..now oso no use le..i wan throw it away!

Den i threw it far into the bush and i regretted doing so right after i throw it..Yet i think it's a blessing in disguise when i see how much u cared when u keep finding it..

U stood up and walk to the bush.. I quickly stood up and pushed u away, asking u not to find it..

Emily: Dun find le la! cannot find de! go away! throw is throw le..oso no use!

Bao: Is you that throw this relationship lei! u can put down, i can't.. (den u use that eyes to stare at me and carry on finding)

I pushed you away again and pull you away from the bush

Emily: I say dun find le!! can buy a new one de wad!

Bao: Some things throw is throw le, cant be replace de..not everything can get new one de.. That ring is you wear for me de leh!! I can't let go of this relationship..i wan find it back..you go home first..

Do you noe..when i saw the serious expression on your face, how much i wanted to hug you tightly and cry..i nearly did that..but i told myself i cant show u i still love u.. i need to be strong..But my heart became shaky..So i ended up starting to find also..and i did not think a lot whether it's dirty, whether there's ants or lizards. All i thought of was the ring and you..I prayed very hard..and i started shedding tears..U started scolding me by den..

Bao: You wan u go home first..I wan find it den i go home..u no nid find la..is u throw de..

I stared at u with my slightly teary eye yet i continue finding and praying non stop while finding..i thought it might get stuck in between the branches..so i started pulling the leaves den i hit it..my hand went right through and i got pricked by the thorns in the branches..oww~ ='[

I keep mumbling to myself that i wan find the ring no matter wad when u told me not to find it anymore..My heart melted that second..i lost to you and your determination. I'm not strong enough and i cant lie to myself anymore that i dun love u..thats y i gave up..but at that point of time i din think that wad i'm doing is showing u I still love u..until you found it and put in my bag..i saw u opening my bag..but i dunno why u open it for..so i carry on searching..Even intended to search the next morning.. den u pulled me..

Bao: You go home la..dun nid find liao..

I shoved your hands off.

Emily: You wan u go home yourself..i wan find..

Bao: dun find le la..cant find le..some things throw le will nv find back de..just like our love..

I stared at you den say:

Emily: You wan u go home yourself la! I say i wan find the ring!

Den you pulled me again

Bao: Dun find liao la!! Is you that throw away the love de lei..find for wad?

Emily: I know! i dun care wad love..i just wanna find the ring!!

I shoved your hands off, yet u pulled me hard and stare at me with those serious eyes..

Bao: You is care bout the ring or ME??!!You care for it more den me??! go see ur bag..

i already knew you manage to find it when u said that..i was really very happy..yet i pretended not to be..But at that point of time, i knew we were meant to be..Yet i hated myself to xin ruan, i hated myself to dong xin.. I held the ring tightly in my palms and you said something i would nv ever forget..

Bao: You throw the love away.....................but now..........I found it back......

At that point of time, i was scolding myself for being stupid..why did i try so hard to find the ring in front of you?! If i dun show to be so concern, den u will just give up..why why why?!! but when i hear you say that, my heart totally gave in and say,

Emily: wad u mean?

den i turned my head towards the pool and cried..i was so afraid to look at you with my eyes coz i am suppose to appear strong in front of u..I did that for the past few days..but i lost to myself and you when i saw how serious you were..

You came and push my head onto your chest.

Bao: Do you still love me? Do you still wanna be together with me? If you wan, hug me.. otherwise, i will leave u from now onwards..

What can I say? How can i not be touched for every action and words u said to me? I din wanted to hug u..but i realise there's no point to act strong anymore..so i quickly and very automatically hugged you.. That warmth you gave me at that moment, i once thought it will be lost 4eva..I thank god for being able to hug u once more..

This is the ring that brought back our love..and this day, i will never ever forget..

I call this a heavenly gift..It was just an ordinary ring b4 you find it..but it's fated to let you find..This ring shows me a side of you I never knew b4..I saw how serious u were to me, how determined you are to just find back a relationship that u cannot put down..I never once realised u loved me this much..Yet it increases the love i had for you..I wish time will stopped at that moment when we were both trying so hard to find it..

Another thing that i realise..this is not just a coincidence..I really dunno why i will wear the ring yesterday..i suddenly saw it out of nowhere in my cupboard..I din ever realise it was there b4..or maybe yesterday, it just seemed to be super sparkling and caught my attention..so i wore it..When i held it, i decided to put it on my middle finger and thought that it can prove i have a bf(thats u)..yet i think i wont meet u at night..so i thought it might be ok since u wont get to see it.. If my thinking was not this, i think yesterday when u find the ring oso cannot find de..i really think this is god's will..To prove each other's love with the test of TIME and OBSTACLES.. now, our love became stronger..lets thank god for that..=]

I know this type of thing like searching for something important will never ever happen again..thats why i noted everything down..coz it's really a very very nice memory that proves the love..Though it's a very nice memory and i wish there'll be another time liddis, but this type of thing..betta not la hor?haha..=D I really love you..dun doubt it ok? I will use all my heart to treat u truly..^^ This is my promise to you..=)

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

9:55 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Actually yesterday wan go Pulau Ubin de..and actually i really very excited oso..coz i 1st time wan go so far with bf ma..but den it's ok la..anway our safety comes first..later if really got anything happen den too late liao marhs..though Jurong Bird Park was boring, but we really took a lot of photos!

And hor.. i wanna apologize for 1 thing..and thats picking on you the whole day yesterday..coz morning u gimme attitude..den i really bu shuang..thats y will keep kup ur phone..sry baby..=( den i will nt happy when u say wan go st james is coz i realli bu fang xin..=( i scared gt gals anyhow touch u..sigh..dun u understand???

Photos for yesterday's Jurong Bird Park:

ke ai de gong gong baby

ke ai de me and bodo de baby..

a little small huh..

wu liao hor we..

Fishy~

plus.. ME!

den..the sky walk~ very kong bu!! x_X

Brave lei u!

Baby, u look like bird keeper lei!

Scary~~!!! ahh! dun put so close to me~

p.s./ dun leave me my dear..

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

12:44 PM

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Heys my love!! Back with more memories and photos!

Recently, I'm so very happy!! You noe why? coz you've been so sweet to me..aww~ slowly falling in love with u again... Do u noe everytime u treat me nicely when they're only 2 of us, i will blush a bit den my heart will feel warm warm de lei..haha! i dunno u izzit really sincere in doing it or just coz u feel that u NEED to do it..But these few days with you, i'm really very touched by wad u did. Like ytd, you spent so much just to catch that dog bigger den my piglet for me. I realize u starting to change le.. but how long can this go on, i still dunno la..haha..but i will use FEEL de..=D

Anyway, i realise that the dog links with the movie we saw also <>.. the whole day like all fill with doggie..i will remember this day for life..=D

THANK YOU BABY BOY! I LOVE YOU A LOT! MY ONE AND ONLY! MWARKS!

Photo tym:

Ms. Money & Mr. BaoBao

In the car on the way delivering ZhuZhu~

Tada!! Safely reach the hands of my cousin! =D

Do you know?
Yesterday at Jurong Point playing that sweet machine, i was kinna touched even when u caught the 1st JackPot..I din expect u to get the 2nd one..but when you said "I say b4 i will catch a bigger one that HIS" and "After i catch le, can replace it le rite? You should noe what i mean ba..", den i nodded..i was very happy..at least i see how much u wanna stand first place in my heart.. but sweetie, u already stood 1st place when u enter my life. AND~ that was the second tym u kept ur promise on matters that i take to heart..hur hur~ First tym was when u showed me that u could walk without ur clutches after i come back from BeiJing. But i regretted that..coz u have to go operation 2nd tym..=( These type of things u can keep ur promises so well, others lei??! humph! But when i see the face and expression u gimme when eating at hawker center, you said "Joking only la..u keep at home lo..really really..", that expression was uglier and worst den crying lei!! I know u dowan me to remember of HIM.. just like how i dowan you remember of THEM(ur exs'). u keep everything inside urself even when u really wan me to make piglet out of sight.. i see le oso heart pain larh~ I dun nid anything from the past.. all i wan, is the present and the future from YOU..

hehe~ but happy happy liao~ and u noe wad? Sometyms i quarrel with you is not really i wan de lei..sometyms just to attract ur attention, play play with u nia.. sometyms is really mood swing dowan talk to u..Yesterday i think i got a little too much.. saying stuffs like i saw wrong things in the morning so i think i cant be with u liao.. actually i wanted give u a little surprise about my results. I actually improved and got better grades den the past 2 semester!!and..the most important thing is..

I DID IT FOR YOU!!happy?

p.s./ Can this prove my love for you?

p.s./ 6 months coming in 12 days time..=D

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:11 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Today is such a sweet and lovely day..=) Although today lots of accidents and tree damages around and traffic lights not in service.. but den for you and me, it's a perfect day..=)

Never in my lifetime had so much fun with my bf..and u're so adorably sweet today also..we went to the arcade and spent so much $$ just to get those stupid willy soft toys..but I really had great fun..baby, did u have fun?=D den we went playing the 'photo y2k'..u were observant..haha..after that the throw ball ball de..play till hand tired liao..but the most interesting part is..i saw u smile..thats the most important thing besides having fun to me..=] I love your smile..

TaDa! Mr. Bao Bao!!

den den, we went pa tuo at the fountain there..sigh..u noe..how i wish time stays there 4eva..just YOU and ME..=[

Today, I found the LOVE that keeps us going..
Today, I realise how blessed and loved i am..
Today, I'm the happiest gal on earth..and i hope so are you..

p.s./ oh well..baby boi~ I love u..really! dun leave me alright..keep on loving me..^^

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:37 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

heys sweetie!! Today is a nice day u know..and u know what makes it nice? It's a call from u!hahaha..

Today, u called to say u feel like hugging me tightly

Today, u sms to say u miss me a lot

Today, u lied again saying u will try to come out of camp =(

Today, I think of u and forbid myself to sit beside a guy in bus

Today, when being approach by a guy talking to me, i was thinking of u all the while

Today, I still love u..=D

But u know what made my day bad? and that is..

I CANT SEE U FOR SUCH A LONG TYM!!

when i think of that..my mood went DOWN! =( baby~

anyway! here is something i wanna show u =D

TADA! our photoframe

Our memory corner in my room! =D

Shuai ge baby at zoo zi-lianing..-.-

Act cool lei u!

we 2 sweet sweet at sentosa =)

At zoo
wahahaha..setosa beach nice

act cute lei baby!

And den..ME! today go out take de

cute la cute la =D

no packs lei..lol..

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

10:16 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Had a little quarrel with my love ytd over the gals that called. Wanted to erase all our memories..but how is it possible?So rather den erasing it, i kept it, and change its URL..maybe just for me to see..Sometimes I'm so lazy to even blog but i find that it is a MUST! coz..

Memories NEVER gets OLD

Let talk bout our past from how did we became a couple from strangers. I've been looking at our messages from the past and i saw the changes in both of us. We were once really sweet after i broke up with my ex, weiqiang(dun get angry). B4 that, i was cold to u..remember?haha..and the messages, wheneva i see it, i will shed tears because it seems to reach out to my heart and i miss them. I love some messages and will smile every single time i see it. It just dun get old and i simply just dun get bored of them.

It started from the day when i broke with my ex and din let any1 know except for my gan-di(JunWei).. I acted as if everything was normal.. I suddenly message u coz i met kim peng on that day and he speaks a lot about you..He kept asking me to message u oso and tell me how disappointed u were when u heard i have a bf. so i thought it'll be good if I have an extra fren beside me.

Emily: hey how are you doing? Lata meet for dinner wan?

Bao: huh..Hmmm..Actually okay la..Hehe..Abit ps leh..

Emily: won't ps la..

Bao: 8 plus 9? Can..

Emily: ok lo..can arhs..

Bao: Yappy..( thats the 1st n last tym i hear that )

Emily: k..den see u lata..

Bao: Oo..Ya..After dinner send u back home..Hm, 8 plus u will be at whr?

Emily: I at parkway parade now. U tell me whr u den i go find u?

Bao: hm, nvm. I go there fetch u okay?( you initiated it! now keep ask me find u! )

Emily: You got ask kim peng go also right?

Bao: He finish will call me.. Than i will let him noe ba.Ok

Emily: ok lo..=)

During 8 plus 9:

During this period, u were driving.. so all along, i was messaging kim peng..He was very funny coz i was kinna nervous and he make fun of me.i kept asking him where were u guys coz it's already 10+ den..and.. Guess wad?

YOU WERE LOST! (like always~)

Dinner was nice at Far Mart..Thanks! I saw a very cute and shy guy in front of me. Blushing away while eating, somewhat wanna laugh yet scared i see ur teeth. Gently eating ur spagetti and listening to wad me and kim peng were talking. I fell in love with you. Well, i like gentle guys~ and u gave me a feeling that you are ABLE to protect me. Becoz in my life, i had too MANY ppl protecting me physically and mentally, but not 1 that controls me and able to be by my side wheneva i need them. U were really different. I sensed it!

After dinner: at 1am ( I havent slp, at home )

Bao: Hmm..Hope u enjoy e dinner..Happy belated birthday..care

I was messaging kim peng all the while oso. A sweet part of the message:

Emily: Help me tell ur fren thanks for the dinner. and u all still not going home?

KP: Ya.. tell le..think going home soon le..you not going to slp?

Emily: not so early ba..a lot fan nao lei..

KP: thinking of ur bf things ah?

Emily: hmms..maybe ba..dunno wad to do lei.. (Actually brk with him le.)

KP: Aiya.. dun think so much la..think of my fren lah..lol

Emily: haha! nonsense

KP: you say my fren betta den ur bf ma..rite?lol

Emily: dunno lei..they like opp lei..

KP: How opp?haha

Emily: dunno how to say..

KP: the feelin towards my fren how?appearance betta huh?lol

Emily: lol..nonsense!weird lei u..haha

KP: weird meh..Lol..Seriously la. My fren aint bad. Only he serving NS..no time for u perhaps?hehe

Emily: I noe arhs..haha..but he oso no feeling for me u tell me these for wad? u gt ask him bout me?

KP: Ya.. i ask aleady.. he got good feelin ah..jus that u gt bf then he nv sms or talk to u much na..alamak..

Emily: oh..haha..just now in the car ask de ar?

KP: No lah..long time ago i ask already.. just that u gt bf and nv see him b4 ma..den u oso say le so i jus tell u lo..haha

Emily: oh..haha..liddis onli arhs?in car nv say anything le mehx?

KP: Alamak..okok..we talk bout u..den i ask him bout ur impression..he say not bad ah..he say ur eyes look beautiful..he say u very cute lo..but the most impt thing he say is that "You got bf le.." then he sian 1/2..LOL.. ( is that true? If it is true, thats the sweetest thing i heard about u )

this is only a cut-out..got more..but too long le..

At 4.22am ( i havent slp..waitin for u ) I shall not type my part out le..

Bao: Nite Gal..miss ya..sorry arz so late le..n so late den reply u bk..nite gal..

Bao: Sooon..wha, nw so late le still not yet slp?thought u every tym slp early wan..?hehe..

Bao: Ooo..chattin wif ur bf arz..hehe..dun quarrel le la..=) must happy..kk

Bao: Ooo icic..haha..he haven slp arz..=) hmms..u not tired? ( u are reffering to kp )

Bao: tats good..dun stay too late outside..hehe..btw dun go drink with ur fren la..not good..understand..

Bao: Same to u too..miss ya..nite :) ( are u interested in me?keep say miss me..haha )

(I cut off some part)

Next morning u at work :

Bao: Pig pig..gd morning.. still slping ha?

Bao: Haha..so tired..just finish swimmin..have u eaten?my little pig.. ( such a sweet nick isnt it? ^^ )

Bao: Ooo..dun so late wor..After skatin go whr?u nv go out wif ur bf?

Bao: Oo..Oic..lata see how..i go find u k?see first ok? hehe..( u initiated again! )

Bao: Gal..have u eaten?
Bao: faster go eat..kk..be good wor..( haix..so caring sia last tym )
Bao: tats good gal.. :) dun disturb u le..go do ur things..mus eat arz..miss u..

I ask u out for a drink with kp 2 days lata :

Bao: Ooo..hmmm..okay..can :)feel sad?

Bao: Ya..abit can..accompany u..btw y u sad..dun tink too much..ok gal

Bao: Aiyo..just relax urself..dun tell me u & ur bf brk le ba..

Bao: huh..really ar?u seems very like him..patch bk wif him nor..ya..btw u brk first or him?stay cool wor..dun cry le..Gal..

Here come the interesting part!! ME n YOUR conversation!

Bao: Gal..so sad le..hmms, can we chat on e phone tonight?Around 11 plus?can? :)

Emily: ok lo.. =) no problem ah..

Bao: dun sad le..sorry..gal

------------- you din call! i waited whole nite!!-------------

Next morning :

Bao: Sorry.. Sorry.. Gal

Bao: Gal.. Sorry..Ytd nite.. Anyway, gd morning..hehe.tink u still slping ba..got dream of me?hehe..Have a nice day.. ;)

Emily: =( i waited for u ytd nite until 12+ lei..u nv call..haix..

Bao: Ya..so sry..Angry arz?My little gal..or worry bout me?haha..Jk :) ( Little gal sounds sweet )

Emily: hmm..lol..nonsense

Bao: haix..thot u will worry abt me..hehe..anyway jk.. hehe ( U were not joking rite?u wan me to say i worry bout u rite?hehe )

Emily: haix..thot u will call..u lie to me.. (Still the same now..keep lie to me..haiz. )

Bao: Sry Sry..too tired..btw i got call u bk..but u slp le..hehe..

Emily: ytd tired ar?

Bao: Ya lor..too tired until 4get u le.. :) hahahaha..

Emily: oh..haha..realli mehx?

Bao: Haha..But my heart nv 4get u.. :) ( aww~so sweet )

Emily: HAHA! nonsense lei u!

Bao: Haha..Really la.. :) ( Really? *shy* )

Den~ we started talking bout other stuffs..many cute messages u and kp send me for that whole week..so i spend that week having fun with 2 handsome guys..haha..=D and we talked nonsense over the phone, u came pick me up a lot of tyms b4 we were tgt in ur grandpa's car, u talked nonsense as if i'm ur gf and alot of stuffs more..!!and that was really SWEET memories!! I love them! (だいすき!） opps..blog getting too long...shall stop here..^^

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

6:07 PM

Monday, March 9, 2009

I'M JEALOUS!=(

today suppose to be a nice day de..but den..sigh..

Baby arhs..today at petrol station..i said something..did u hear?You asked me whether i missed u..den i nodded my head..den i told you something..Let me say them here:

Wo she bu de ni~

What a nice sentence..but immediately after i say finish, u pick up the phone. Some1 was talking so loudly! and u pretended i can't hear. Obviously it's a gal. Play majong? at ur house? 4 gals? wanna call them later? wow..you know..i really pretended i din hear. So i put on 2 earpiece and..

BLAST THE MUSIC TO THE MAX!

though my ears were painful..but den not as painful when i heard how that gal speaks to u..i began to keep quiet all the way throughout the journey home. I began to think that whateva u said to me were lies..I began to question myself is it still possible to trust u..den my heart gives an answer. It said:

From now, dun ask too much question from him

From now, trust him even if he do something you dun like

From now, give him freedom

And..FROM NOW, i will bear all the pain quietly.

My heart aches. It slowed down it's speed..the eyes began to turn a little red. Den i felt my face a little wet. Baby, I'm jealous! why do u allow so many gals to ur house?i nv did that b4..i nv allow a lot of guys to my house to play b4..Den can i ask u.. from now, izzit fair that i go out with guys, to let them come my house to play?

I kept telling myself not to be jealous, to accept ur frens be it gals or guys. I kept saying I'm NOT jealous. But if i'm not, I'll just be a normal fren den..hope u understand..

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:44 PM

Sorry baby..So long no update OUR blog le..=( coz recently the Japan guy come Singapore marhs right..no time to write blog..so..now when he left, it's time to catch up on OUR memories..

In that 5 days, I thank you for accompanying me even though you've got work.

In that 5 days, I thank you for making me smile despite how frustrated i am over the weather.

In that 5 days, I thank you for trusting me to allow me to accompany him.

Well, this is not a blog with other ppl memories with me. This is a blog with ONLY OUR memories..so i shan't talk bout the chinatown stuffs blah blah blah with him de..anyways, thanks for making ur way down to VivoCity just to see me.. I dunno izzit u're worried i kenna eaten or u miss me..but thanks nah!=)

Sentosa was fun right? Wanted go underwater world so much..=( but den it's ok..i'll go with u the next time. There a lot of hunks and babes wor!hahaha..i bet u got see oso..but u pretend u nv see nia lorh!dunch think i dunno!hahahaha~

Then, we went Night Safari..No fun de lei..so little thing..Actually Tram more fun..can see more..but nvm la~I oso wan sit with YOU only next time.. and we made a promise de hor!dun forget le! And that is our...

3 MONTH PROMISE!

3 month later we must go together despite we still together not

Lastly, i realise myself being more luo suo day by day..izzit due to age?hahaha..i oso dun wish to liddis de ma..=( sorry narhs! just sometyms i really feel so much like talking to u..den i talk so much until i forget it turned into a nag liao.

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

1:35 AM

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Hmms..today is a very short day..The sky gives off this colours which makes it feels like it's crying..=(

Went BBDC for Basic Theory Lesson 1.02. Baby come find me after lesson..thank you sweetie! Though he promise to go BBDC with me and wait for me to come out de la..=( But nvm la..i'm happy enough!

After that, when waiting for roti tissue, u were happily talking bout your past and when u say u broke ur wrist for 1 gal, i think i guessed it correctly. After which u said "Huimin", a knife stabbed through my heart..and if u notice, my smile on my face faded away. Heart pain le la..thats y after eat roti tissue, throughout the journey walking, i'm nt able to speak or get active.. Not because of wad you say "thinking of the Japan guy"..Please! he is nothing impt to me! just a normal fren!!

When reach home le, wanted go in house le..but i heard u sighing and wonder if i should open the door. Still, i walk downstairs with you to chat. Thats when things start to turn nasty. We started talking about that Japanese guy thing, den talk bout me getting cheated, talk bout trust and many more larhs! and i noe all u did is for my own good coz u dowan let me get hurt. And despite that, i said so many things that hurt u. i say until halfway and when i look into ur eyes, you know what i saw and what i think deep inside my heart but dare not admit to myself?

I saw SORROW in your eyes..den..my heart starts to REGRET why on earth would i say such a thing to you..i felt useless as ur gf all of a sudden..in your eyes, u may see me caring for that japanese guy so much and leaving u alone, like as if he's my bf and u're not..right? until i look into ur eyes, den i started to stand at ur point and think..what if it's the other way round.. But sweetheart, u noe wad? my stubborn nature forbids me to admit my mistakes..and when u started saying me more,looking at me with those eyes, how can i ever turn back my words and admit I'm wrong? How can i ask my Japanese fren to go back Japan when he's already on the way to Singapore? Isn't all these a little too late?

p.s./ Baby, I'm sorry..I love u so much.
p.s./p.s./ Baby, the moment i left u, i started saying sorry to u

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:32 PM

Monday, March 2, 2009

As you know, today is our 5 months right?so here's some pic as remembrance =)

PHOTO TIME

OUR necklace

o2.1o.o8

(Emily: left; Bao: right;)

The food we share, almost finish!

i dun like salad..=( but baby like..

Baby eating at ikea~

Eating brocolli..yuck..x_X

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:07 PM

Today went out together with sweetie and his friends to woodlands causeway point after i went for my BBDC theory lesson 1.01. Den after that go ikea eat and Han Hwa send Baby to his workplace..ty Han Hwa..Just a normal day with many jokes here and there. Had quite a fun time with he and his frens.

Today is also the last day I can be with baby until next week =( very shag ler..Baby, when u step out of han hwa car, i already begin to miss u when u din turn back to see me..='( It's like i'm force to seperate with u..i miss the days when u dun have work..i can see u wheneva i like..sigh!

But when u called me on phone and told me there's so much memories bout me at ur workplace, i'm very touched. coz i really missed those memories..and i thought u have already forgotten them. I still remember every word and sentence u say to me at ur work place..the messages that u sms, some are still in my phone..next tym i'll let u see k?=D so sweet! but now..

NOT SWEET LIAO LORH!!BLEAH!

1 more thing..u told me u will be having a course for 3 months and not going home..u noe how much i will miss u!!u not scared gt a lot ppl start to woo me and jio me go club or wad mehx?u not afraid that YOUR GF will be lonely and start to think a lot like last tym? for that 3 months..what will happen neh?sigh baby..i really dun dare to think what will happen lei..What am i going to do without u?

p.s./ I'm starting to miss our memories

p.s./p.s./ missing the baobao at far mart

p.s./p.s./p.s./ I'm dying to let OUR history repeats itself again =(

p.s./p.s./p.s./p.s./ BUT only the good ones!!

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

10:46 PM

Hehe..sorry arhs..a bit rush.. coz just got home and wrote bout what happen 2 days ago. so right after i write that finish, it is already past 12am, which means o2/o3/o9. and that means.....

HAPPY 5 MONTHS MY LOVE!!

This entry is written right after the previous post. A bit rush coz no time to write, yet i wanna jot down all our memories lei..=( nvm narhs baby. Today is also ur best fren HAN HWA BIRTHDAY! haha..sing happy birthday song to him in OUR blog kae?

~~~~~~~~Music~~~~~~~~

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to Han Hwa

Happy birthday to you~!

This is specially for your best fren only hor! haha! make an exception to him lar~hehe..anyway, so fast 5months le.. i thought 5 yrs liao lei!!haha! anyway, hope we will long long la hor~ heex! =D I really wish u will be happy with me lorhs 1 day..coz i will be the best gf u ever seen! ^^

p.s/ Bi, I'll wait for you.. 4eva loving you..

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

12:35 AM

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Heys sweet guy, I'm back! hahas.. Today is such a wonderful day and the last day i can spend with u le..=( baby, the moment u step out of my sight, i started to miss you already.

Let's talk bout ytd's memories. Remember we went zouk with my frens and han hwa? I know you are not happy coz i was so close with xia bing. But baby, he's really only my fren and i dun have feelings for him ever since 1 yr ago, so no nid worry the feeling will come right now alright. My heart belongs to you ONLY.

Yesterday, u seem like another person. U seemed lonelier den ever, and yet i throw you behind, enjoying myself. I regretted the moment u step out of my sight. i wish to hold you tight and nv let go. But my heart kept saying "you'll be like a dog the moment u hold his hand, so obedient, so afraid to lose him"..so i ended up ignoring you time and time again. Sorry baby, do you noe how much i wish to tell u my true feelings and how i feel for u? haix..So everytym, u kept asking me whether i really love u or am i true to u..the answer is always YES! I really love you baby boi~ just that i dunno how to express that love inside. So i choose to do by actions. Thats y u will see i have more actions and do a lot of things for you.

Back to topic, about the secret u told me, I've been thinking a lot. No wonder these few days u're acting strangely. And when you told me bout that, do you know how much pain is in my heart? I've been crying upon thinking. What if u ever leave me? What should i do? u noe so many so many memories been flashing through my head all these tyms, all the words u said to me b4. I nearly cried out when eating with my cousin u noe. But i ren!!haha..baby..i dowan to lose u..really..i can exchange anything in my life just for you..really..if god wan me to exchange my relationship for ur life, i can!!really. But i noe, since god put us together, is coz he wan us to walk down the road together. We got through so many obstacles already, not so easy to break us up de right?

Though today is the last day to see you, but dun worry. We'll see again next week right?! And although we spent the whole day at ur hse, but at least staying beside u, at least as a gf, i feel blessed. I felt so much love today. Baby, the notes must keep properly. Even the slightest thing we do together is also part of a memory. And treasure our couple necklace ok? it's 5months and valentines present together. Chocolate is part of our 5months gift.

The notes is as written:
p.s./ I'll be here waiting for you to return
p.s./p.s./ PLEASE! Love me always! OK?! I miss you so much =(
p.s./p.s./p.s./ I'll remember your smiles, remember our memories, and foreva remembering YOU! I love you!

You're the sweetest
thing in my life
~*Baby Gal ♥ Baby Boi*~

11:49 PM